"She needed someone to show her who she could be..."

I realize I'm very much in the "public eye" when it comes to what I do... but at the same time, I'm somewhat apprehensive of the wrong people finding out.  Anytime I bring up the concerns I have, I'm always asked why I continue on with what I do, and how I'm able to keep the two lives separate. 

 Jinxypie is a two-sided coin (as is most everyone else that’s living.)  I have a private side that encompasses my family and friends, then there’s the “cuckoldress” side which involves my website and my cuckolding mission.  No one in my family (excluding my husband) has any clue of my extracurricular activities.  At this point in my life, I don’t feel there is a need for everyone else to know about it.  They aren’t as open minded as I am, and would most certainly shun me and my husband for this.  They’re real prudes sometimes, too… it’s hard for me to think about them finding out.  Not only because they’d basically disown me (not like they give much thought to my feelings anyway – but that is possibly a story for another time), but because they’d see it as somehow me hurting the children and would find a way to cause drama in our lives.  It’s all so unnecessary, hence the reason I choose to keep this part completely separate from my cuckoldress life. 

 The webmistress/cuckoldress side of me wants all females to be educated on not only cuckolding, but all other types of “open” relationships.  Why do we all go around thinking that sex is something that is shameful?  That open sexuality is wrong and shouldn’t be given a second thought?  Sexual women are often seen as sluts and I would love to change that double-standard. (You don’t hear many men being crucified for sleeping around… unless you’re a famous sports star who built yourself on a wholesome image… right?)  Why would it be better for a woman to be frustrated and almost miserable in her relationship (I’m referring to the sexual aspect) as long as she’s monogamous, than it would for everyone to have all the safe sex they want and be happier all around?  …I realize I’m getting a bit off-topic.  That is my mission, to educate… and to have all the fun I want personally (teaching by example!).  I also have the nifty websites to take care of. This is what I love to do, and I’m not going to stop. 

 I won’t lie, most of the time it can be really difficult to keep both sides of my life separate.  It can sometimes feel like I’m an outcast, like even the most accepting and open minded of my friends would pull away if they knew about this kink.  I have to really watch what I say sometimes, in talking about “this guy I know” that has a certain job or “a friend from out of town” that came in for a visit (not going into specifics on the nature of the visit).  My “regular” friends and family?  Would never forgive me.  I know what you’re thinking, surely it can’t be that bad, right?  …I know some of you ladies are out there in the same situation as me.  Living this “double life”.  We have curiosities about men, fetishes, etc but won’t dare voice them, nor will we do much research online for fear of those that are following what we do, watching our every move.  This goes back to an earlier blog post (or multiple posts) in which I’d like some like-minded friends to talk to sometimes.  Women that are accepting of this lifestyle choice, and aren’t afraid to share about it.  All women that aren’t scared of their sexuality really need to stick together, am I right?  I have NEVER turned away a woman that wanted to talk about her curiosities or adjustments into this lifestyle.  Granted, I don’t have as much time to devote to it as I’d like, but I’m always here for you ladies!  I’d hate to find out you chose not to try this because you’re scared of society and being an outcast.  If this is something you are SERIOUSLY interested in, then go for it!   It takes a little bit of effort, but it’s so rewarding! 

 If my family found out about my extracurricular activities, it certainly wouldn’t stop me from continuing.  This is my life, I’m living it how I want to, and enjoying it to the fullest.  I’m not hurting anyone, I’m being safe… and you certainly shouldn’t ‘knock it until you’ve tried it!’  Maybe I’ve discovered the outlet you need in your own life! Cuckolding is fun for me and my husband, it’s an important part of our life. If this part was missing I’m sure we’d both feel a void.   

Some of you know this already, but I was approached by Dr. David Ley, author of the new book Insatiable Wives, Women Who Stray and the Men Who Love Them.  He’s now making a documentary along these same lines, and asked if I wanted to participate since I’m already an established web presence.  I am insanely flattered by his kind words and the opportunity!  But I do value my privacy.  I am not at a place in my life yet to throw caution to the wind, to let the world know about my almost double life. If any of you other cuckolding/hotwifing couples out there are interested in participating in his documentary, PLEASE contact him!!!  I would love to see this piece of media blasted all over the place, therefore making cuckolding more accepted amongst our peers.

 Quick story… one of my friends works in an adult-related industry.  About two weeks ago, one of the porn stars his company promotes walked into his office.  He even got online just to express his excitement that SHE was in his office, signing autographs at his boss’s desk.  I sat for a moment, and the first words that came out of my mouth were “I can’t wait for the day that a roomful of guys are beside themselves with excitement because *I* walked into their office.”  LOL! Who knows what the future holds. ;) 

I’m still in the process of reading Dr. Ley’s book and I will do a review once I’m finished.  Special thanks to my friend and fan, Randy, for the book!  Awesome gift!  If any of you are interested in buying a copy, you can find it on amazon.com.